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[Sep. 27th, 2007|10:28 pm] |
it's been a while since i posted anything and since i have time ill do it. things are going alright for the most part. the corps is the hardest thing i have ever done... but then again i am in the hardest outfit IN the corps so it's no surprise. people have a lot of respect for me when they ask me what outfit im in. it's pretty cool. i joined rudder's rangers, a group that gives you insights to ranger training and it's my ticket to doing amazing at infantry school this summer. the work out is extremely difficult though and my squad leader is a PT hoss. hes also in charge of discipline for the corps so i dont know if thats a good thing or a bad thing. needless to say im going to try and get on his good side. i've lost a lot of weight and im slimming down, but that makes my lipoma on my stomach even more noticable so i look lopsided, im getting it removed during christmas though. so it's alllll good:)
the corps is good for me, i have a lot more confidence and shit like that. oh, and reading your bitches, gripes and complaints on LJ is funny. you guys have no room to complain! you have noo00oo00oo idea how good you have it right now. and dont give me that bull about how i 'voluteered' for what im going through, it doesn't matter. the point is, my life suuuucks and your lives are pretty fun. a normal college life is awesome. cherish it:) anyways, hope you guys are doing well! |
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[Aug. 28th, 2007|10:27 pm] |
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i really hate company k-1. no fucking time to do anything. none... this...is...so...stupid... |
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[Aug. 11th, 2007|06:02 pm] |
I am selling some of my most prized possessions because i no longer have a place for them in my current living conditions. I also need 350 dollars for a plane ticket.
I am selling a rapier and a dagger for a total of 100 dollars. When i bought them they were 200 dollars and they are in the same condition as they were then because i have taken very good care of them.
I am also selling my paintball gun for 50 dollars. it is a spider victor II. that is a good deal for that gun. if you buy the paintball gun i will also throw in a 20 oz CO2 tank for free and it will come with the hopper.
I am also selling my flail. It is two spiked balls hanging from a chain and a handle. it's actually pretty nice and im selling it for 30 dollars.
I am also selling three battle axes for thirty dollars each. they are strictly ornamental though so dont use them to chop anything. |
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| welcome to the suck |
[Aug. 10th, 2007|01:37 pm] |
so i think i am over my whole death crisis. no matter how much i worry about it and have panic attacks over it's not going to change the fact that one day i will die. so i might as well enjoy the short life i was given. so have fun kids and do crazy things!
in a week ill be gone guys! just one week! wowzers. im nervous as hell. this whole year is going to suck. |
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[Aug. 5th, 2007|04:23 am] |
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i just had a really big panic attack. i realized that i was going to die. and i already knew that... but.. .for some reason it overwhelmed me. that i would be permanently leaving and i started to cry and freak out. it was not very characteristic of me... i am a man of faith and i believe in eternal life. but... when i was lying alone in the darkness of my room trying to sleep it hit me. and there wasn't an eternal life. just an abyss of nothingness and black. it was scary. i felt so fucking helpless. it was scary as shit. and i kept trying to cling on to my faith but it kept slipping farther and farther away! ahdakfja;lkf;jadklfja wtf just happened?! i really need to start school again:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:( i hate time. i really really hate the passage of time. one day it will kill me... and i hate that. |
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[Jul. 15th, 2007|03:19 am] |
Time is really passing by... as i sit and write this it's all rushing down at me. I have filled out so much paperwork for the corps and the army it's unreal. you really do need to sign a lot of things before the government can really own you i guess. The MOS forms, the medical forms, the education slips and the contracts... the classes... the agreements... jesus. the 'dont ask dont tell' form? that one was just funny. Asshole 2nd leuitanents that just commisioned thinking they're tough shit...
i have to delete my brother off of my facebook because as a fish in the corps im not allowed to have him on there and im not supposed to know his first name too. i registered for my classes... it's insane...
my new name is Fish Manias. or just 'fish' seeing as im not allowed to capitalize the 'f' in 'fish'. hmm... this is going to be a weird year guys. im going to be in a great outfit though. i can't wait. im going to meet my best friends on august 19th... the day i ship out. i hope you guys see me before then. i doubt any of you will though because most of you dont really hang out with me |
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[Jul. 8th, 2007|04:55 pm] |
| Your Life is Rated R | 
Your life is definitely adults only. While children accompanied by parents are welcome, they'll probably be scarred for life. |
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[Jul. 7th, 2007|08:37 pm] |
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really fucking amazing. all my friends go to philmont and im stuck with people that never answer their god damn phones or return messages. ah fuck it. you guys fucking suck. |
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[Jun. 30th, 2007|04:43 am] |
Your Score: 11", Holly, Unicorn You scored 26 wisdom, 38 bravery, 21 emotional, and 27 martyrdom!
Holly is a powerful protective wood that good for use against evil, but it also represents dreams and fertility. Your unicorn's tail hair core means that you are pure of heart and care deeply for your loved ones.
thanks for the test meg! |
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[Jun. 29th, 2007|04:27 am] |
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ah man. so much is changing. it's exciting!im never going to see some people ever again but hey, life goes on... and it's not like im going to really miss anyone THAT much. i didn't allow myself to become close to that many people and it's about to pay off! haha
some people im really REALLY going to miss are Dillon and Ben... we've been through so much stuff together. Dillon will be around for a year before he goes off to annapolis and ben... well college isn't really for ben so we'll see what becomes of him. the only free time ill have anymore is during christmas. i have all sorts of stuff to do during the summer! basic training. infantry school. jump school. air assault. wowzers! busy:)
RAWR
Training regime is going goooood. im still fat but im happy! haha
HARRY POTTER TEH OMGOSH!!!!111one
I can't wait for the super awesome harry potter party. |
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[Jun. 21st, 2007|04:41 am] |
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so i was walking around the house naked (this isn't unusual) and i glanced at the mirror. what i saw amazed me... i saw a godly physique. i saw a chiselled six pack with obliques and pecks the size of pam's breasts before the surgery. i saw 23 inch biceps... basically, i saw a lean mother fucker. then... it faded and before me was the dumpy,blotchy fat me. then i worked out for a few hours. i WANT that image permanent. im going to infantry school and ranger school the next summers and im going to the corps in the fall, i WANT that body. i will have it. i will earn it. i can't wait to see you guys in 2 years, but you wont see me, youll see someone completely different. |
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[Jun. 7th, 2007|04:35 am] |
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i dunno.. i feel like i should say goodbye. but i dont really think anyone reads my lj anyways... so... *delete* |
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[Jun. 5th, 2007|11:51 am] |
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so im going to MEPs today... Military Entrance Program... yep. big day... ill talk to you guys later... just in case, give me your addresses just incase i get shipped out soon. so if you want to send me letters post down below. |
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[May. 26th, 2007|10:07 am] |
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thank you to everyone that made my four years special. w/o you guys id have no fond memories. god bless you guys, i love you. |
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[May. 10th, 2007|12:12 am] |
weird day. bad mood. bummed out.
the girl who supposedly really likes me has been cold and distant of late.
fuck her
too late to have a serious relationship anyways so i dont care.
basic in the summer
corps of cadets the rest of the year
AIT next summer
corps of cadets next year
free summer except for ANG activities that only last 2 weeks... so probably will be spent going up north and visit my friend up there and stay.
then corps of cadets after that.
repeat of last summer
senior year at A&M
deployment to wherever the hell the army will take me.
thats what the next 4-5 yaers of my life looks like.
looks pretty good to me...... |
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[Apr. 23rd, 2007|02:47 am] |
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when people take my pervertedness as creepiness and take it as me treating women like shit, it makes me mad. i treat women with the respect and kindness everyone deserves. and women that know me know that. |
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[Apr. 8th, 2007|12:26 pm] |
as i was in norwich it hit me at how isolated i was going to be from everyone. how i was leaving everyone i love and saying goodbye. and i decided that it was too big of a sacrafice for me to make just coming out of highschool. so i made a decision, just not the one everyone expected. im not joining the military, at least not yet. im getting a job and getting some basics done at kingwood. i like this idea, and a lot of my friends are doing the same.
also, i got a job at a 4 star french restaurant:). Im a back waiter there, it pretty much kicks ass. i get to learn all about this cool french gourmet/cuisine stuffff. i love it. yay for Chez Nous:)
this new workout with dillon is yieling results. this is actually making me pretty happy. i just wish i had a friend to do jiu jitsu with... would anyone like to learn jiu jitsu?
oh, and happy easter |
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[Mar. 30th, 2007|05:43 pm] |
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for three years they were friends and if she had such a big problem with it she should have stopped hanging out with him... not get him arrested. |
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[Mar. 29th, 2007|06:54 pm] |
ok just cause im tired of everyone asking...
yesterday felt like one of the worste days in my life.
i woke up and threw up a couple of times
passed out until 1pm
my fuckbuddy broke up with me
dad said he wasn't going to pay me back my 50 dollars
parents were ignoring me and purposefully being assholes to make me feel bad
was made fun of
i was coming back from subway with my dad's food when i turned and his coke fell out of his cup holder. the wheel jerked when i reached really quick for it and i went up a curb and hit a light pole.
knocked out his left blinker
no more car for me
one of my good friends confessed to me that her mom has been molesting her for a while.
threw up a couple of times after that....
there was more... but im tired of complaining |
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[Mar. 24th, 2007|10:38 pm] |
departing houston next sunday at 1pm to cleveland ohio. then 2 hours later ill depart cleveland to burlington vermont to visit norwich... fun fun:)
ill take pictures! |
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